The Last Time I Saw You
The last time I saw you, I didn’t even look at you..
I didn’t hug you
I didn’t say hi
I didn’t say I love you
Or that I miss you all the time
The last time I saw you, I walked past you like you didn’t exist
You’re always so excited to see me
Yet you’ve made me like this
We said we’d get matching tattoos,
Knowing you, you already have yours
But now that I don’t know where you are I need you
And I was losing it before I knew you were gone….I knew something somewhere, was wrong…
But now what am I supposed to do…
Is this what love does to you?
Does it taunt and taunt until you’re grateful!
Only to constantly haunt with the fact that it’s breakable?
Because I’m crying more than I can breathe right now
Because it’ll always be my fault
I just wish you would think about me more
I wish that I could gather the courage to talk…
But the last time I saw you, I didn’t…
And I hope you know that I wanted to….
The next time I see you I’m gonna hug you and never let go
Because I need you and I need you to stay for me, like you still need me too
I’m out here all alone
And getting thoughts to sleep in an empty tub….
To scream into my pillow
To scream at you……..
But I can’t
The last time I saw you
You were in pain and I was oblivious..
Please.
Don’t let it take you
Or ruin us
Because I love you
And you’ve only just begun saying you love me
I remember when we’d never like to admit it
Mushy shit wasn’t for us
But now we can do that and I never allow it
But I love you more than anything
You mean the world to me
I can’t keep losing everything.
Don’t I deserve anything?
Don’t you, at least deserve me?
Or maybe I’m not good enough..
Not knowing where you are is really tough…
I don’t think I can handle anything
Think I might lock myself up in my room and never come out
Why would I love anyone or anything!?
When every time I do, it leaves, like I don’t deserve to smile for more than an hour without bad news….
Like I can’t just have a good fucking life because I’m a good girl…
I do the right things
I wait my turn
I am grateful
I don’t boast
I try my hardest
And I’ve lost
even you
But I refuse to…..
You depended on me
You needed me
You needed me
Why did you leave?
Like I don’t need you more!
But the last time I saw you, was a completely different story
And my mind is forcing me to think of only negative things……
But you have to be alright.
You have to.
The last time I saw you, you were
Right?
I wish you were here, to say goodnight
How am I supposed to fight…..
How am I supposed to sleep…?
I’m gonna have dreams about what I should’ve done when I saw you last time….
But they’ll end in screams
And I’ll wake the neighbors and ruin their dreams
I need you to be alright..
So the next last time I see you, I can say I love you first…
I can yell at you
I can hug you
I can make YOU cry!!
So you will never put me through this again…..
I’ve lost too much to lose you
I’ll say that the next time I see you…..
You’re the only one strong enough to carry these bags under my eyes…
And I refuse to lose you…
Please..
Don’t let that last time, be the last time I see you……
didn’t even make it past the first line before i had to reblog
This is so cool.
the evolution of Disney
I swear shit started poppin’ when I was born (‘93)
(Source: mydollyaviana, via viciousbri)
